Madison has filled my heart with so much love and joy. Every time I look at her my heart melts. I am so thankful for the gift of motherhood but being a mom is so challenging. You have this little person that by their cries you need to figure out what is wrong. I have asked many moms and dads this week on what to do for my little one. She's not sleeping. Let me tell you, nothing can make you question motherhood like being sleep deprived. With all my other kids it has been a piece of cake to put them to sleep in their crib. Even after they had slept in the rock n play or swing for a few months. The transition was nothing. I blinked and all was good. Then came Madison. My husband says, "When you decide that this is the last baby they are always a terror." At first I laughed. But I think he is right. We even visited the doctor. No reflux and no ear infections. His conclusion....She's a stinker!
From day one she has told me what she wants. When she's hungry, cold, wet or incredibly resentful at me for putting her in her crib. At first I just started putting her in for naps. It's easier to train a child in the day than at night. But she wouldn't have it. She didn't want her crib. She wanted me or her rock n play. I thought ok we'll just try tomorrow. Then tomorrow didn't work. Or the day after that. Now I am going on almost 2 weeks of trying to get her to sleep in her crib. And wow am I sleep deprived! She was so mad at me for trying to get her to sleep in her crib she decided she was just going to fuss every time I put her down. Then she just didn't want to sleep anywhere but in my arms.
Now, let me be very clear. I am not a co sleeper. I love the idea. But I do not sleep well because I am always worried about something happening to her. That's me. For everyone else that co sleeps and it works for you; That's great!
