My special blankie

Tonight after dinner I was getting the kids ready for bed. It's usually filled with chaos as we all try to get the rowdy little ones to calm down. As I was trying to master this mommy thing Madison managed to slip out of her diaper and pee on the floor while Titus was running around all crazy. I told Jackson to sit on the couch in my bedroom while I got the other ones a bath and I would get his in a few minutes. I got Maddie her bath and looked out on the couch. He was still sitting there waiting for me.

I walked over to the couch and sat down beside him. I brushed the hair out of his eyes and noticed he felt particularly warm. I laid him down and took his temp. Yep, a fever. His little cheeks all flushed and his sweet eyes starring at me. I got him his bath and his Olaf pjs and asked him if he wanted to sleep on the couch in my room. The kids usually camp out there when one of them isn't feeling well so I can keep an eye on them at night. He said yes and I got him my "special blankie".

This "special blankie" was crocheted by Brian's great grandmother Ruby. She passed away a few years ago. I always really liked the blanket that she made so I only let the kids use it when they aren't feeling well. When Faith was little and she would get sick she would say, "Mommy I want the special blankie tonight!"

I got the special blankie out of the drawer and I unfolded it. Jackson gave me the sweetest smile as I laid it on him. I snuggled up next to him and I said, "I love you Jackson Matthew!" He smiled, snuggled into me and closed his eyes. As I was starring at him sleeping I couldn't help but think of how beautiful this child was. The sweet innocence in his face. Soft. Truly in peace while he was sleeping. Long beautiful eyelashes. A cute round nose. Chubby cheeks. The tinniest little hands. And I thought to myself. This is what God has made. So wonderful. So perfect. So mesmerizing. I fell in love with this child in my womb. He was loved before I knew who he was. Jackson was fearfully and wonderfully made. And he is perfect to me! There is nothing more wonderful than how full your heart feels when you love a child. So much joy. Bliss. Contentment. And I am so thankful to God that He chose me to be Jackson's mommy.

Matthew 18:10 "See that you do not despise one of these little ones. For I tell you that in heaven their angels always see the face of my Father who is in heaven."